Sometimes I just wish my mom had live, things will be so much different. I just want a very common, normal family with a working dad and a mom to take care of me. Just like that I will be more than contented. However, things just don't work out we wanted to be doesn't it? Choose the wrong course, quit and ended up with another course I like, but I just not sure how long does it take for my passion and determination to dries up. Things just suddenly go downhill. Friendship separated, and to be honest, I hate almost all my relatives, but not the one I'm staying with. I'm really don't know what to do now... Study, graduate, find job and keep working.. I know I shouldn't think about the future but I just can't help it. Can mummy just take me away.. Can some vehicles just hit me so hard that I would have die instantly? 我没勇气死,但我真的很想死....

Hi guys!:) it's been long since I last blog:) just feel the urge to blog, so here I am:) just came back from NAFA for watching a play. It was really Awesome! It's really amazing that all actors can memories all the Chinese poems! I'm so envy that they can speak up freely without any anxiety.. Hahah :) next life, please let me born with a pretty face so I can be part of the theatre crew!
On a side note... Another fact  that I found out about myself is that I get easily jealous and paranoid for nothing, simply nothing when it comes to relationship.. Oh god, what is happening to me... I still remember auntie told me I'm that kind of person that will get super easily jealous, however I don't believe in it. But now... RAAHHH~ I have become an overly obsessive gf... NOOOOOOOO~

IS THAT JAKE AND RAINICORN PUPPIES?!?!?!?!?

I seriously need to think of a way to watch this movie, 'Now Is Good' ft. Dakota fanning. Great actress, she's same age as me though :D
Ailee should really sing more ballad kind of songs like 'Evening Sky'. Its really smoothing. Even my domestic helper couldn't resist it and told me she like 'Evening Sky'. Hahah so cute right?

Hi guys. Its been long since I've blog. Been busy working this few weeks. Also, there's been a lot of things happened lately. My 宝宝 Latte passed away on monday 31/12/2012, the last day of the year. It hurts to see her go. I don't want her to go. She is the most innocent, quiet and loving dog among the other four. I really miss her a lot. Memories of her flashes back to me everytime.

Grandma, friends and relative don't understand and keep asking me do you feel sad? Did you cried? Why are you not crying?
Yes I am sad and i did cried okay. Does that means I have to cry and be moody forever just to make sure you notice it? I seriously do not understand. I still remember my grandma asked me after my mom passed away, questions was like, 'why you didn't cry? Don't you miss her?' Similar questions was asked by a couple of friend and kin and now same goes for latte case.
 I carried her almost everyday and night. Night time she will always leap up with her two paws at my legs awaiting for me to carry her. I would always let her lay on my chest and stroke her to sleep. She is more than a dog to me, how can I not feel anything. I feel sad and miss her a lot. But life have to goes on. This is life. I won't and I don't want to get moody everyday waiting for people to notice and get comfort from them.


I seriously loathe people ask me this kind of senseless questions.

I need a new wallet, a branded kind. Went to OG with Julia and Cass today but seem nothing caught my eyes. Probably I'll go JB after my work end on 26 december.






DENIM, TRIBAL, DIP DYE, KNIT WEAR EVERYWHERE...

I was disappointed by your actions and words. Seriously I don't understand what you mean by ungrateful. Why do you get so work up for a minor misunderstanding? I always believe that you're a very sensible person but it was unappropriate for you to leave when everyone tries to cheer you up. Moreover, its a birthday celebration. When I heard about the situation, I took a cab all the way to novena just because I was so worried for you. I tried to ask but you chose to ignore. You said that you're left with nothing.Your words struck me hard that it hurts. But yet again who am I to you? I'm just nothing. We do care but why can't you see it? I admit that I was not a good friend, not by your side when you needed help.

I come to point where I learn to forgive and forget every little minor issues that sometimes hurt me as I know I cannot afford to lose the 5 years friendship. Hope everything will get back how it used to be.